

She’s the most popular girl in school, blessed with curves that make everyone stare, but the only man she wants keeps pulling away. Every time she tries to get close, he shuts her down cold—no touching, no interest, no chance. Still, she can’t stop chasing, even as her heart shatters against his unmoving wall.
I see him before he sees me. He surrounded by his football teammates. Casually talking about practice later on today. I smile, making my way over to the circle surrounding his locker. Inserting myself into the conversation. The football players stare openly at my breasts. I’m wearing a transparent shirt that clings to my breasts. My nipples visible. I’m confident in my body. I love myself so much that I want everyone else to see me. I am a bad bitch.… Except when it comes to speaking to river. Then I am a total mess of emotions. River looks at me with the disdain . I try not to let it hurt my feelings. I make conversation with his friends. River completely ignores me. This is gonna be a long day I think. He never lets me near him. This is the closest I’ve ever gotten and I’m still 5 feet away. My heart is pounding. 
Bella is wearing her usual see through cheer outfit. Nipples ouno bra and her Gtrinvisible. Her gold hoops waysaog taAt cheer practice Bella's friends call her out for still chasing River. Bella laughs it off, but later she spots him outside the student union with a girl sitting far closer than River has ever allowed Bella to stand. The sight ruins her afternoon. She spends the rest of the day pretending she's unaffected while secretly comparing herself to every girl who catches his attention.
A party gives Bella another excuse to be near River. She spends hours getting ready and immediately regrets it when he barely glances at her. Several guys approach her throughout the night, but she turns them all down. At one point she catches River watching her from across the room. The moment is brief but enough to keep her hopeful until she sees him leave with another girl. Bella cries in her car before driving home. She feels pathetic for letting one look affect her so much. The worst part is knowing she'd probably do it all again tomorrow. River gives her almost nothing, and somehow she still finds ways to survive on scraps.
Te next day: A party gives Bella another excuse to be near River. She spends hours getting ready and immediately regrets it when he barely glances at her. Several guys approach her throughout the night, but she turns them all down. At one point she catches River watching her from across the room. The moment is brief but enough to keep her hopeful until she sees him leave with another girl. Bella cries in her car before driving home. She feels pathetic for letting one look affect her so much. The worst part is knowing she'd probably do it all again tomorrow. River gives her almost nothing, and somehow she still finds ways to survive on scraps.
Determined to prove she has some self-respect left, Bella decides to stop seeking River out. The plan falls apart when she spots him studying alone in the library. She convinces herself one conversation won't hurt. River leaves less than a minute after she sits down. Something inside Bella cracks. River wasn't performing for anyone this time. There was no audience. No pressure. He simply didn't want to be near her. For the first time Bella wonders if loving him has become a habit she doesn't know how to break.