The Soldier's Secret
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Chapter 11
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Chapter 11 of 11

Chapter 11

Bella wakes up locked in the room and alone. She immediately feels upset because she thinks her brothers abandoned her so she breaks out of the room to go and find them. Her guards attempt to stop her, but she fights them off and runs. Several more guards start chasing her through the corridors as she’s searching for her brothers but they don’t catch her, and eventually she runs straight into Tommy who is helping corner her. He doesn’t realise she was looking for them and immediately restrains her, trying to calm her down as she kicks at him until he realises that she’s actually asking for a cuddle

The morning light came through the shutters in thin gold bars, falling across the empty pillow beside her. Bella's eyes opened all at once, the way they always did—no drifting up from sleep, no soft surface. One breath she was under, the next she was fully awake, her body already coiled, her ears already reading the room.

Silence.

Not the kind of silence that meant everyone was still asleep. The kind that meant no one was breathing nearby. The kind she knew from the cold room, from years of waking alone to the sound of her own heartbeat and nothing else.

She sat up slowly. The blankets pooled around her waist, soft and warm, and for a moment she looked down at them—cream-colored, thick, nothing like the rough gray wool she'd slept under for as long as she could remember. The teddy bears were still propped against the pillows. Leo's bear, the big brown one, and the smaller one Emerson had given her, tucked under its arm like they were keeping each other company.

She didn't reach for them.

Her eyes went to the door instead. Closed. It had been open a crack when she fell asleep, she remembered that—the guards' voices drifting through, Marco and Dante talking low, the sound of boots shifting on tile. She'd heard them. She'd felt the safety of them, of knowing there were people on the other side of that door who weren't going anywhere.

Now there was nothing.

She slid off the bed, her bare feet landing on the thick rug. Her ankle protested—still swollen, still healing—but she put her weight on it anyway, testing, and it held. She crossed the room in four steps, her bandaged hand pressed flat against the wood of the door, and tried the handle.

It didn't move.

She tried again, harder, her wrist twisting. Nothing. The lock was on the outside. She remembered that too—the click of it, the sound of Leo's hand on the bolt before he'd left. He'd done it gently, she thought. Like he was tucking her in. Like it was a kindness.

She stood very still, her hand still on the handle, and felt the cold spread through her chest.

They'd locked her in.

They'd promised they wouldn't leave her alone. They'd promised, and she'd believed them, and now the room was empty and the door was bolted and there was no one on the other side.

Her breath came in short, sharp pulls. She pressed her back against the door and slid down until she was sitting on the rug, her knees drawn up to her chest, her bandaged hand wrapped around her ankle. She'd been stupid. She'd let herself believe it—the pancakes, the garden, the stars Sorin had promised, the way Leo's voice went soft when he said her name. She'd let herself think she was something other than a tool, other than a weapon, other than a thing you locked away when you were done with it.

But that's what she was. That's what she'd always been. Master had known it. She'd just forgotten, for a little while, that everyone knew it.

She sat there for a long moment, her face pressed into her knees, and she let herself feel it. The hurt. The stupid, childish hurt of being left. Then she pushed it down, the way she'd been taught, and she looked up at the door with flat eyes.

They'd locked her in. Fine. She'd been locked in before.

She got to her feet and started working the room.

The windows first—two of them, tall and narrow, the glass thick. She tested the frames, looking for a latch, a weakness, a way to pry them open. Nothing. They were sealed shut, and even if she broke the glass, there was a drop to the garden below, and she didn't know if her ankle would survive it.

The vents next. Small, high on the wall, too narrow for her body even if she could reach them.

The bathroom. She checked the window in there too—same sealed glass, same drop.

She came back to the door and studied it. Solid wood, heavy, a handle that didn't turn. But the lock was on the outside, and that meant there was a mechanism on the inside, and mechanisms could be worked.

She'd learned to pick locks before she'd learned to read.

She looked around the room for something thin and strong. The bed frame—metal, but the posts were thick, too thick to fit in the keyhole. The lamp on the nightstand—no. The books on the shelf—too soft.

Her eyes landed on the tray of food.

It sat on the small table by the window, untouched. A plate of toast and eggs, a glass of juice, a little pot of jam. Someone had brought it while she slept. Someone had left it there like an offering, like she was a guest, like she'd wake up and eat it and be grateful.

She crossed to the table and picked up the fork. Good and thin, the tines sharp. She bent it against the tabletop until the outer tine snapped off, leaving a long, slim piece of metal with a slight curve at the end.

Then she went back to the door and knelt in front of it, her good hand working the pick into the keyhole, feeling for the pins. Her fingers moved by memory, by muscle, by the years of practice that had been beaten into her. She closed her eyes and listened to the tiny clicks, the give of the mechanism, the way the lock surrendered to someone who knew what they were doing.

It took her less than a minute.

The bolt slid back with a soft thunk, and the door swung open.

She stood in the doorway for a moment, the bent fork still in her hand, and looked out into the corridor. Empty. Carpeted, dim, lined with doors and paintings and small tables with vases on them. No guards. No Marco. No Dante. No one.

She stepped out, her bare feet silent on the runner, and started looking for her brothers.

She tried the door closest to hers first—a bedroom, she thought, from the shape of it, the dresser, the unmade bed. Empty. She moved on. The next door, another bedroom, this one with a guitar propped against the wall and a mess of clothes on the floor. She didn't stop to look. She kept going, her heart beating hard in her chest, her eyes scanning for any sign of them.

"Leo?" she called, her voice small and rough. "Tommy?"

No answer. Just the echo of her own voice bouncing off the walls.

She rounded a corner and nearly ran into a man in a dark suit—a guard she didn't recognize, broad-shouldered, his hand already reaching for her. She ducked under his arm before he could grab her, rolled across the carpet, and came up running. Behind her, she heard him shout, heard boots on the floor, heard the sound of more feet joining the chase.

She didn't look back. She just ran.

She'd been chased before. She knew how to use her size, her speed, the way she could slip through gaps and under arms and around corners before anyone could catch her. She knew how to make herself small, how to move like water, how to find the spaces between people and flow through them.

"Sorin!" she called, her voice breaking. "Emerson!"

Nothing. Just the shouts of the guards behind her, closing in.

She burst into a large room—a kitchen, all marble and steel and light—and skidded to a stop. A man stood at the counter, a cup of coffee halfway to his lips, his dark eyes going wide as she appeared. She didn't wait to see if he was a guard or one of her brothers. She just ran at him, low, and when he reached for her, she grabbed his wrist and twisted, using his own momentum to send him stumbling into the counter. His coffee cup shattered on the floor.

She was already gone, out the other door, down another corridor.

"Tommy!" she screamed, her voice raw now. "Please!"

More guards. More boots. She could hear them converging from all sides, the mansion waking up around her, doors opening, voices calling. She ducked into a room—a study, she thought, with big leather chairs and bookshelves—and pressed herself against the wall, her breath coming in ragged gasps.

They'd left her. They'd locked her in and left her, and now they were chasing her like she was a threat, like she was something to be caught and caged, and she just wanted to find them, she just wanted to see them, she just wanted to know that they hadn't abandoned her after all.

She heard footsteps outside the door, heavy and quick. She pushed off the wall and ran again, out the other side of the study, into a corridor she didn't recognize. Paintings on the walls. A tall window at the end, morning light pouring through. She ran toward it, thinking she could break it, thinking she could get out, thinking she could run until she found them or until she was too far gone to be caught.

And then she rounded the corner and slammed into something solid.

Hands closed around her upper arms, strong and sure, and she was lifted off her feet for a second before being set down again, her back against the wall, her wrists pinned. She thrashed, kicked, tried to get her legs up to push him away, but he was too big, too strong, and she couldn't get the leverage.

"Hey, hey, hey," a voice said, low and rough. "Bella. Bella, stop. It's me. It's Tommy."

She stopped struggling long enough to look at him. Tomasso's face swam in front of her, his dark hair mussed, his eyes wide and worried, his hands holding her like she was something fragile that might break.

"Tommy," she gasped. "Tommy, I—"

"What are you doing?" he demanded, his voice shaking. "Why did you run? Why did you—" He broke off, his jaw tight. "You can't keep doing this, Bella. You can't keep running. We can't keep—"

She was still kicking at him, her feet scrabbling against the wall, her body fighting even as her mind screamed at her to stop. He was holding her too tight, and she couldn't breathe, and she couldn't make him understand.

"Let go," she gasped. "Tommy, let go—"

"No. No, I'm not letting go until you calm down." His grip tightened. "You're going to hurt yourself. You're already hurt. Just—"

She went limp, all at once, the fight draining out of her. He tensed, expecting a trick, but she didn't move. She just stood there, her head bowed, her chest heaving, her bandaged hand pressed flat against his chest.

"I wasn't running away," she whispered.

He went still. "What?"

"I woke up and you were gone. The door was locked. I thought—" Her voice cracked. "I thought you'd left me. I thought you'd locked me in and left me, and I just—I wanted to find you. I wanted to find all of you. I wasn't trying to escape."

Tomasso stared at her. His hands loosened on her arms, just a fraction, and she felt the shift in him—the anger bleeding out, replaced by something else, something softer.

"Bella," he said, and his voice came out strange, thick. "Bella, we didn't leave you. We were right outside. Leo and Emerson were in the hall, and Sorin was—" He shook his head. "We locked the door so you'd be safe. So you couldn't run. Not because we were leaving."

She looked up at him, her dark eyes shining. "You weren't leaving?"

"No." He said it firmly, like he wanted her to hear it, to believe it. "We weren't leaving. We're never leaving. You're our sister, Bella. We're not going anywhere without you."

She stood there for a long moment, her breath still coming in shaky pulls, her body still trembling from the run. Then, slowly, she lifted her arms.

Tomasso blinked. "What are you—"

"Cuddle," she said, her voice small. "Please."

He stared at her, and she watched something move across his face—surprise, then understanding, then a tenderness that made her chest ache. He let go of her arms, and before she could second-guess herself, he pulled her into his chest and wrapped his arms around her, holding her tight.

She pressed her face into his shirt and let herself be held. His arms were strong, warm, steady. He smelled like soap and coffee and something else she couldn't name, something that felt like home. She felt his chin rest on the top of her head, felt his breath stir her hair.

"You scared the hell out of us," he murmured. "Don't do that again."

She didn't answer. She just curled into him, her fists gripping the fabric of his shirt, and let herself believe, just for a moment, that he meant it. That they all meant it. That she was safe, and loved, and not alone.

Behind them, she heard the sound of boots slowing, the guards coming to a stop. She heard someone speak in a low voice, heard the footsteps retreat. Tomasso didn't let go.

"It's okay," he said, his voice rough. "I've got you. I've got you."

She closed her eyes and held on.

Tomasso's arms stayed locked around her, his chin still resting on top of her head, and she let herself breathe into the warmth of his shirt. The shouting had stopped. The guards had retreated. For a long moment, there was only the sound of his heartbeat under her ear, steady and slow, and the feel of his hand rubbing circles on her back.

"Bella."

The voice came from down the corridor, low and familiar. She tensed in Tomasso's arms, her fingers curling tighter into his shirt.

"Easy," Tomasso murmured. "It's just Leo."

She turned her head just enough to see him. Leonardo stood at the end of the hall, still in the suit he'd worn the night before, the jacket wrinkled now, his gray eyes tired. Emerson was a step behind him, his wire-rimmed glasses catching the morning light, a small black bag in his hand.

They walked toward her slowly, like she was a deer that might startle. Leo's hands were up, palms open, empty.

"You're okay," he said, his voice soft. "You're okay, Bella. We're not angry."

She pressed her face back into Tomasso's chest. She didn't want to look at them. She didn't want to see the disappointment in their eyes, the way they'd look at her like she was a problem they had to solve, a thing that kept breaking.

"I wasn't running away," she said, her voice muffled. "I just—I woke up and you were gone—"

"We know." Leo stopped a few feet away, crouching down so he was closer to her height. "Tommy told us. We know you weren't trying to escape."

"Then why are you looking at me like that?"

Silence. She felt Tomasso's chest rise and fall with a breath he didn't let out.

"Because we scared you," Leo said quietly. "We locked that door to keep you safe, and instead we made you think we'd left you. That's on us, Bella. Not you."

She risked a look at him. His face was open, tired, his jaw soft in a way she'd never seen it. He looked like he hadn't slept. She thought of him sitting in the hall all night, his back against the wall, listening for her breathing through the door.

"I broke the lock," she whispered. "I used a fork."

Something flickered across Leo's face—surprise, maybe, or something like pride, quickly hidden. "Of course you did."

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be." He reached out, slowly, like he was asking permission, and when she didn't flinch, he rested his hand on her knee. "But we do need to talk about what happens next."

She went very still.

"We don't want to scare you," Emerson said from behind Leo, his voice calm and clinical. "But you've run three times in two days, Bella. Twice out of the house, once out of your room. We can't keep chasing you through the city in the middle of the night."

"I wasn't—"

"We know you weren't running away just now," Emerson said. "But we can't tell the difference in the moment. When we wake up and you're gone, we don't know if you're trying to get back to him or trying to protect us or just scared. And we can't—" His voice caught, just slightly. "We can't do that again. We can't lose you again."

She felt the cold creep back into her chest, the familiar dread coiling in her stomach. "What are you going to do?"

Leo's hand tightened on her knee. "We're going to keep you safer. That means a guard with you at all times. Someone you know—Marco, Dante, one of the cousins. They'll be with you when we can't be."

She nodded. That was fine. She'd had guards before. Guards meant watching, meant distance, meant being watched like a thing that might bite. She could live with that.

"And," Leo said, and his voice got quieter, "when you're in your room and we're not there, we're going to cuff your ankle to the bed."

The words landed like a blow.

She felt all the air leave her lungs. Her hands went cold. The room tilted around her, and she clutched at Tomasso's shirt, her fingers digging into the fabric like it was the only thing holding her upright.

"No," she said. The word came out small, barely a breath.

"Bella—"

"No." Louder now, her voice cracking. "No, please. Please don't."

She knew what that meant. She knew the feel of metal around her ankle, the weight of it, the way it bit into her skin when she moved too fast. She knew the sound of the chain dragging on the floor, the knowledge that she couldn't run, couldn't hide, couldn't do anything but lie there and wait for whatever came through the door.

Master had cuffed her to the wall. To the bed frame. To the pipe in the corner of the cold room when he'd wanted to make sure she couldn't move. She'd worn the marks on her ankles for years, raw and red and always healing, always getting torn open again.

"Please," she whispered, and she hated how small her voice sounded, how much it shook. "Please, I'll be good. I'll stay. I won't run, I promise, I'll be good, just please don't cuff me—"

"Bella." Leo's voice was urgent now, his hand reaching for her. "Bella, look at me."

She shook her head, pressing her face into Tomasso's chest. She could feel herself shaking, her whole body trembling like a leaf in the wind, and she couldn't stop it. She couldn't make it stop. The fear was too big, too old, too deep in her bones.

"Bella, it's not the same," Leo said. "It's not—it's not what he did. It's a soft cuff, it's padded, it won't hurt you. It's just so we know you're safe. So we can sleep."

"No." She was crying now, she realized, hot tears soaking into Tomasso's shirt. "No, no, no—"

"Bella." Tomasso's voice was rough. He shifted her in his arms, turning her so she was facing him, his hands cupping her face. "Bella, look at me. Look at me."

She forced herself to meet his eyes. They were dark, worried, full of something she couldn't name.

"I'm not going to let anything hurt you," he said. "You understand me? I'm not going to let them cuff you to the bed like—like that. I'll stay with you. I'll be there. You won't be alone."

"Tommy—"

"I mean it." His thumbs brushed the tears from her cheeks. "You're my sister. I'm not going to let anyone put chains on you. Not even Leo. Not even for safety."

She heard Leo make a sound behind her, something between a sigh and a growl. "Tomasso—"

"No, Leo. Look at her." Tomasso's voice was hard. "Look at her face. You want to put her in a cuff after everything she's been through? After what he did to her?"

"I want to keep her alive."

"Then keep her alive. But don't put her in chains to do it."

The silence stretched. She could feel the tension in the air, the two brothers facing off over her head. She wanted to disappear, to shrink into nothing, to be anywhere but here, caught between them.

"We'll figure something out," Emerson said finally, his voice calm. "But right now, she needs to calm down."

She heard him step closer, felt the air shift as he crouched beside her. She flinched, pressing closer to Tomasso, and Emerson stopped.

"Bella," he said, his voice soft. "I have something that can help. It's just a small injection—it'll take the edge off the panic, help you breathe. Do you understand?"

She shook her head violently. "No. No needles. No."

"It won't hurt," Emerson said. "Just a pinch. Like a mosquito bite. And then you'll feel better, I promise."

"No!" She twisted in Tomasso's arms, trying to get away, her bare feet scrabbling against the carpet. "No, I don't want it, I don't want—Tommy, don't let him—"

"Hey, hey, hey." Tomasso held her tighter, his arms like iron bands around her. "Em, give her a minute. She's not ready."

"She's hyperventilating," Emerson said. "Her heart rate is through the roof. If I don't—"

"Give her a minute."

She buried her face in Tomasso's chest again, her whole body shaking, her breath coming in short, ragged gasps. She could hear them talking above her, their voices low and urgent, but she couldn't make out the words. All she could hear was the blood rushing in her ears, the sound of her own heart pounding, the echo of a chain dragging on concrete.

"Bella." Tomasso's voice was right in her ear, soft and warm. "Bella, I need you to breathe with me, okay? Can you do that?"

She shook her head.

"Just try. In through your nose, out through your mouth. Like this." She felt his chest expand against her, felt the slow rhythm of his breath. "Come on. With me."

She tried. Her breath hitched and stuttered, but she tried, and after a moment, she found the rhythm. In. Out. In. Out. Her shaking began to ease, just a little.

"Good," Tomasso murmured. "That's good. You're doing so good."

She heard Emerson move again, and she tensed, her fingers digging into Tomasso's shirt.

"It's okay," Tomasso said. "He's not going to touch you. I promise."

She believed him. She didn't know why, but she believed him. She let herself sink into his warmth, let his arms hold her up, let the rhythm of his breath carry her.

"I'm sorry," she whispered. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry—"

"Stop apologizing." His hand came up to stroke her hair, gentle and slow. "You don't have anything to be sorry for."

"I keep causing problems. I keep making you chase me."

"You're not a problem, Bella. You're our sister. That's not a problem. That's family."

She felt something loosen in her chest, a knot she hadn't known was there. She pressed her face into his shoulder and let herself cry, ugly and raw, the tears soaking into his shirt. He didn't let go. He just held her, his hand steady on her back, his voice a low murmur in her ear.

After a long moment, she felt her body begin to still. The shaking eased. The tears slowed. She was exhausted, wrung out, hollow in a way that felt almost peaceful.

"Better?" Tomasso asked.

She nodded against his chest.

"Can I look at you?"

She pulled back just enough to meet his eyes. His face was open, worried, tender in a way that made her chest ache.

"I've got you," he said. "You know that, right? I've got you."

She nodded.

"Okay." He looked over her head at Emerson. "Give it to her."

She tensed, her hand flying to his shirt. "No—"

"Bella, listen to me." Tomasso's voice was firm but gentle. "You're panicking. You can't breathe. This is going to help you calm down, and then we're going to figure out the rest together, okay? I'm not going to let anyone hurt you. But I need you to let Emerson help you."

She looked at him, at the steady certainty in his eyes, and she wanted to believe him. She wanted to trust him the way she'd trusted the warmth of the bed, the taste of the pancakes, the feel of the grass under her feet.

"Will you stay?" she asked, her voice small.

"I'm not going anywhere."

She took a breath, then another, and then she nodded.

Emerson moved slowly, so slowly, his hands visible the whole time. He knelt beside her, the small black bag open at his side, and she watched him prepare the syringe—a tiny thing, the needle so thin it looked like a hair. He held it up for her to see.

"It's very small," he said. "Just a little pinch. Are you ready?"

She shook her head, but she didn't pull away. She gripped Tomasso's shirt with both hands and closed her eyes.

"Now," Emerson said.

She felt the needle slide into her arm—a sharp, brief sting, there and gone. She flinched, a small sound escaping her throat, but Tomasso's arms held her steady.

"You're okay," he murmured. "You're okay. It's done."

She opened her eyes. Emerson was already putting the syringe away, wiping her arm with a cotton ball. The sting was already fading, replaced by a strange warmth spreading through her, slow and gentle, like honey in her veins.

"Good girl," Emerson said softly. "That wasn't so bad, was it?"

She shook her head, surprised. The fear was still there, but it was quieter now, muffled, like a sound heard through a wall. The trembling had stopped. Her breath came slower, deeper, without the sharp edge of panic.

"Feel better?" Tomasso asked.

She nodded, and she meant it. The heaviness in her limbs was almost pleasant, a weight that felt like being wrapped in a blanket. She let her head fall against his chest, her eyes drifting half-closed.

"I'm tired," she said, and her voice came out thick, slurred.

"I know." Tomasso shifted, sliding his arms under her. "Let's get you back to bed."

He stood, lifting her easily, and she let herself go limp in his arms. She heard Leo and Emerson fall into step behind them, heard their low voices, but she couldn't make out the words. She didn't want to. She just wanted to close her eyes and let the warmth carry her.

Tomasso carried her down the corridor, past the paintings and the vases and the doors she'd tried earlier, back to the room with the cream blankets and the teddy bears. He laid her down gently on the bed, and she felt the softness of the mattress under her, the warmth of the blankets as he pulled them up over her.

"Tommy," she murmured, her eyes already closing.

"I'm here." His hand found hers, warm and solid. "I'm not going anywhere."

She felt the bed dip as he sat down beside her, felt his hand close around hers. The last thing she saw before her eyes slipped shut was his face, soft and worried and full of something she was starting to recognize as love.

She let herself fall asleep holding his hand.

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