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The Walk Away
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Chapter 3 of 16

The Walk Away

Marcus stares at the empty space where Lila was sitting, the ghost of her knee still pressed against his under the table, her scent—something floral and sweet—lingering in the air around him. Isaac leans across the table, eyes wide. 'Dude. That was Lila Moretti. She sat next to you. She knew the brother reveal.' Marcus's throat works, but no sound comes out. Beside him, Pearl gathers her tray with sharp, deliberate movements, her chair scraping against the floor as she stands. 'I have to go to the library,' she says, not looking at any of them, and walks away before anyone can respond. Tony watches her go, then turns back to Marcus with a raised eyebrow. 'You okay, man?' Marcus's hand drifts to his knee, pressing against the spot where Lila touched him, and he doesn't answer. He stutters an shocked story of what happened this morning when they crashed into each other. When all speculate . A few minutes later Derek shows up taunting and straight up bullying all three of them

The cafeteria had already swallowed the sound of the door swinging shut behind her, but Marcus Hayes was still staring at the space where Lila Moretti had been sitting. The fluorescent lights hummed overhead, casting that flat institutional glow over everything, and somewhere behind him a tray clattered onto the tile floor, but none of it reached him. What reached him was the ghost of her knee against his under the table, the faint floral sweetness that still hung in the air around his face—something soft and clean, like jasmine maybe, or honeysuckle—and the absolute wreckage she had left in her wake.

"Dude." Isaac's voice cut through, sharp and breathless. He was leaning across the table now, both palms flat on the Formica, his round face split by a grin so wide it looked painful. "That was Lila Moretti. She sat next to you. She knew the brother reveal. She knew about the brother reveal, Marcus. She read it three times."

Marcus's throat worked. He opened his mouth. Closed it. Tried again. "I—I don't—"

"She sat next to you," Isaac repeated, slower now, like Marcus might have missed it the first three times. "Lila Moretti. The girl every guy on this campus has been trying to talk to since freshman year. She sat next to you. She knew the brother reveal. She touched your arm."

"She touched his knee too," Tony said, and Marcus felt his face go hot. Tony was sitting across from Isaac, his gangly frame folded into the plastic chair like a praying mantis, dark eyes sharp with amusement. "I saw it. She pressed her knee against his under the table and held it there for like a full minute. That wasn't an accident."

"It wasn't—" Marcus started, but the words tangled in his throat. He could still feel it. The pressure. The warmth. The way she had leaned into him when she laughed, her shoulder brushing his arm, her hair swinging close enough that he caught that scent again. He had barely been able to breathe. He still couldn't breathe, actually. His lungs felt like they were operating at half capacity.

"You okay, man?" Tony asked, and there was genuine concern underneath the amusement now.

Marcus's hand drifted to his knee, pressing against the spot where she had touched him through the loose denim of his jeans. The fabric was warm from the cafeteria, but it wasn't the same. Nothing was going to be the same.

"We—we c-crashed into each other this morning," he said, and the words came out rough, uneven. "In the h-humanities corridor. I was t-turning the corner and she was there and I—I c-caught her."

Isaac's eyebrows shot up. "You caught her?"

"She was—she was f-falling. I didn't want her to—I just—" He demonstrated with his hands, an awkward grabbing motion that made Tony snort. "She was s-small. I c-caught her around the waist."

"Around the waist," Isaac repeated, and his grin had gone slightly feral. "You put your hands on Lila Moretti's waist."

"I didn't m-mean to. It was an accident."

"And then she sat next to you at lunch," Tony said, ticking off points on his long fingers. "She knew your name. She knew you were on the math team. She knew the brother reveal. She pressed her knee against yours for a full minute. She touched your arm when she laughed. She asked if she could sit here again tomorrow."

Marcus stared at him.

"Bro," Isaac said, leaning back in his chair. "You're not seeing this clearly. She's interested."

"She's L-Lila Moretti."

"Exactly."

Beside Marcus, a chair scraped against the floor with a sound like a gunshot. He flinched, turning, and found Pearl standing, her tray gathered in her hands with her knuckles white against the plastic. Her face was perfectly blank—too blank, the kind of blank that was doing a lot of work—and she was staring at a point somewhere above his head, not at him.

"I have to go to the library," she said. Her voice was flat. Even. Nothing in it at all. "I have a paper due."

"Pearl—" Marcus started, but she was already moving, walking away from the table with her tray held in front of her like a shield, her short bob swinging with each step. She didn't look back. She didn't slow down. She just walked through the cafeteria and out the side door, and the whole thing happened so fast that Marcus was still halfway out of his chair when the door swung shut behind her.

Tony watched her go, then turned back to Marcus with a raised eyebrow. "That was weird."

"She's been weird all day," Isaac said, and there was something careful in his voice now, like he was choosing his words. "Ever since Lila showed up. She kept trying to pull your attention back, and you kept—" He stopped. Shrugged. "You kept looking at Lila."

"I wasn't—" Marcus started, but the protest died in his throat because he knew it wasn't true. He had been looking at Lila. He hadn't been able to stop looking at Lila. Even now, with the ghost of her knee still pressed against his and the floral scent still tangled in his lungs, he was looking at the spot where she had been sitting, tracing the curve of air she had occupied, trying to make sense of the fact that she had chosen him.

"Why would she—" He stopped. Swallowed. Tried again. "Why would she t-talk to me? I'm n-nobody. She's—"

"Lila Moretti," Isaac finished. "Yeah. We covered that."

"But why?"

Tony and Isaac exchanged a look. It was the kind of look that said they were communicating on a frequency Marcus couldn't access, a frequency reserved for people who understood things he didn't understand about himself.

"Maybe she likes you," Tony said, and it was so simple, so direct, that Marcus actually laughed.

"Nobody likes m-me."

"Dude." Isaac pointed at him. "She sat next to you. She pressed her knee against you. She touched your arm. She asked if she could sit here again. That's not 'nobody likes you' behavior. That's 'I'm trying to get your attention' behavior."

Marcus shook his head, but there was a small, fragile thing blooming in his chest, something warm and tentative, something he didn't trust. "She's p-probably just being nice. She's—she's friendly. She's n-nice to everyone."

"She's not nice to everyone," Tony said quietly. "She's nice to us. There's a difference."

Marcus opened his mouth to argue, but the words died in his throat because a shadow fell across the table. A big shadow. A shadow that came with the smell of cheap cologne and the weight of someone who thought he owned every room he walked into.

"Well, well, well," Derek Russo said, and his voice was a lazy drawl, the kind of voice that had been perfected over years of making other people feel small. "Look who's still sitting at his little table with his little friends. Having a nice lunch, math boy?"

Isaac's jaw tightened. Tony's shoulders hunched. Marcus very carefully did not look up.

"Didn't your mommy teach you it's rude to ignore people?" Derek's hand landed on the back of Marcus's chair, and Marcus felt the plastic shift under the weight. "I asked you a question, stutter boy."

"We're f-fine." The words came out quiet, barely audible over the cafeteria noise, and Marcus hated how small they sounded. Hated how his voice betrayed him every single time, turning his words into something weak and wavering just when he needed them most.

"Fine?" Derek laughed, and it was the kind of laugh that wasn't really amused. "You don't look fine. You look like you just got hit by a truck. What happened? Did one of your little math problems finally beat you?"

"Leave him alone, Derek." Isaac's voice was steady, but Marcus could hear the strain underneath, the way Isaac's hand was gripping his fork like a weapon. "We're just eating lunch."

"I can see that, fat boy." Derek's eyes slid to Isaac, and his smile widened. "Enjoying that tray? Looks like you're enjoying it. Maybe you should slow down, save some for the rest of us."

Isaac went still. The kind of still that Marcus recognized, the kind of still that meant Isaac was counting to ten in his head, reminding himself that getting in a fight with Derek Russo would mean detention and a call home and his mother's disappointed face.

"We're not looking for any trouble," Tony said, and his voice was careful, diplomatic, the voice of someone who had learned to navigate bullies by being smaller than their radar. "We're just finishing up. We'll be out of your way in a minute."

"I don't want you out of my way." Derek's hand left Marcus's chair and landed on the table, right in the center of their empty trays, palm down. "I want to know what's got stutter boy looking so confused. You finally figure out that girl's not going to look twice at you? That she was just messing with you?"

Marcus's head snapped up. "W-what?"

"Lila Moretti." Derek's grin was sharp, predatory. "I saw her sitting here earlier. Figured she was doing a charity thing or something. You know, sitting with the special kids for a day. Very noble."

"She wasn't—" Marcus stopped. Swallowed. His heart was hammering in his chest now, a hot, ugly thing that he didn't know what to do with. "She was j-just being nice."

"Sure she was." Derek's voice dripped with condescension. "Lila Moretti, the hottest girl on campus, decides to sit with the math team because she's 'being nice.'" He made air quotes. "Come on, man. You can't be that stupid. She was either bored, or she lost a bet, or she's trying to get to someone else and you're just the convenient seat."

"She knew the brother reveal," Isaac said, and his voice was sharp now, defensive. "She's read Ultimate X. She talked to us for twenty minutes about comic books. That's not a bet."

Derek's eyes narrowed. "What the hell are you talking about?"

"Just leave us alone, Derek." Tony's voice was still careful, but there was an edge to it now. "We're not bothering anyone."

"You're bothering me by existing." Derek's hand slapped the table, and the sound made Isaac jump. "I swear, you three are the most pathetic things on this campus. You think a pretty girl sitting next to you for one lunch means something? You think she's going to come back tomorrow?" He laughed, and the sound was ugly. "She's not. She was just—"

But Derek stopped, because Marcus had stood up.

It wasn't a dramatic thing. There was no shoving, no chest-puffing, no angry speech. Marcus just stood, unfolding his 6'4 frame from the plastic chair, and suddenly Derek had to look up to meet his eyes, and the math team table that had seemed small and pathetic from above was now a different kind of territory.

"I th-think," Marcus said, and his voice was steady now, quieter than Derek's but steadier, "that you should l-leave us alone."

Derek's eyes flickered. Just for a second. Just long enough for Marcus to see it, that moment of uncertainty, the recognition that the guy in the baggy hoodie was half a foot taller than him and had shoulders that didn't quite fit the silhouette of a math nerd.

Then the mask slid back into place, and Derek's grin returned, wider this time. "What are you going to do about it, stutter boy? Hit me? You don't have the balls."

"I don't need to h-hit you." Marcus held his ground, his hands loose at his sides, his voice calm. "I need you to l-leave. You've had your f-fun. Go bother someone else."

For a long moment, nobody moved. The cafeteria noise seemed to fade into a distant hum, and Marcus was acutely aware of Isaac and Tony watching him, of Derek's varsity jacket and the letterman patch on his shoulder, of the fluorescent light reflecting off his class ring.

Then Derek snorted. "Whatever, man. You're not worth my time anyway." He turned, but not before getting one last jab in. "Enjoy your victory. It won't last."

He walked away, his footsteps loud against the tile, and the moment he was gone, Marcus dropped back into his chair like someone had cut his strings.

"Holy shit," Isaac breathed.

"Holy shit," Tony echoed.

Marcus put his head in his hands. His hands were shaking. His whole body was shaking. "I d-don't know what that was."

"You stood up to Derek Russo," Isaac said, and his voice was full of something that might have been awe. "You actually stood up to him. And he backed down."

"He d-didn't back down. He just—he got b-bored."

"He backed down," Tony said firmly. "I saw it. He looked at you and he saw something he didn't expect, and he backed down."

Marcus lifted his head, and there was something raw and uncertain in his eyes. "I don't—I'm not—I d-don't want to be that guy."

"What guy?"

"The one who f-fights. The one who—" He gestured vaguely. "I just want to be l-left alone."

"Yeah, well." Isaac picked up his fork, examined it, set it down. "Sometimes being left alone isn't an option. Sometimes you have to draw a line."

Marcus stared at the spot where Lila had been sitting. The floral scent was fading now, replaced by the cafeteria smell of overcooked vegetables and industrial cleaner, but he could still feel the ghost of her knee against his, the whisper of her hair against his arm, the way she had smiled at him like he was the only person in the room.

"I don't understand," he said quietly. "Why would she—"

"Maybe you don't have to understand," Tony said. "Maybe you just have to let it happen."

Marcus didn't answer. He sat there, in the empty cafeteria, the lunch rush thinning around them, and tried to make sense of a day that had started with a collision in the humanities corridor and ended with the most dangerous girl on campus wanting to sit next to him tomorrow.

He didn't understand. Not yet.

But he wanted to.

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